a sweet, sweet night

He came over again last night, my gorgeous lover. It was wonderful. I brushed and stroked his hair and he read from a book out loud to me and the love we made was so long and so sweet, neither of us wanted it to end. I'm beginning to relax and trust in his affection for me. I'm still afraid for my heart, but it's so very nice to give myself over to these feelings. This passion, this hot, searing, beautiful love.

"I don't know how to love him, what to do, how to move him
I've been changed, yes really changed.
In these past few days, when I've seen myself,
I seem like someone else.

I don't know how to take this, I don't see why he moves me.
He's a man, he's just a man,
And I've had so many men before.
In very many ways, he's just one more.

Should I bring him down, should I scream and shout?
Should I speak of love, let my feelings out?
I never thought I'd come to this.
What's it all about?

Don't you think it's rather funny I should be in this position?
I'm the one who's always been so calm so cool
No lover's fool, running every show.
He scares me so.

I never thought I'd come to this.
What's it all about?

Yet, if he said he loved me, I'd be lost, I'd be frightened.
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope.
I'd turn my head, I'd back away, I wouldn't want to know.
He scares me so..
I want him so..
I love him so.."
(Mary Magdalene's song from Jesus Christ Superstar)